doggie is gone

 星期五， 一如既往的起床，像平时一样，逗逗candy，喂她吃饼干，教她‘hand hand' 的手势才有奖赏。她表现的很好。我landlady 回来了，问了下candy 的状况。-他一直有skin rash + 早上嚎叫，我说她还好，有时有点 heavy breathing, 早上有时会‘哭’。 但是很快又稳定了。

landlady michelle 问了我的意见，看他需不需要看兽医。 我支持。

跟 家人skype后， michelle knock on my door, said the vet told that
Candy has to be put down. I was shocked, looked down the stairs and realized candy is not back with her.
Michelle added, the vet said Candy has cancer and most likely to have 4 weeks left, then they gave her a dose to make her sleep and she was sorry. I nodded, right after i closed the door, tears flows down continuously, i was heart broken.

I had a terrible exam on the day before and i still hold on-.
But Candy's death was 1000 times more awful than my crappy exam.

Had a horrible time, cleaning his dog fur on floor, tidy up her toys on floor, missing her, miss my best friend, who waited for me when i got back from work,  who shows me big smile, who supports my baking and cooking her all her heart and mouth, who comforts my soul when i had hard time at work, who took my leftover food, who walked to the beach and park with me.
Who welcome me when i moved in with anxious, swing her tail and be my best accompany ever since.

When i got back from work today, i opened the door and its the first time Candy is not waiting for me, it does not feel the same in the house without her accompany.
I missed her footsteps, her smells, and her dog fur...

however I have no regret, i spend a lot of quality time with her, we done a lot of walking together, she got my 100% love, she is well loved, she got awesome dog life.

dog is human best friends, they are the one and one species who will never left u, who always stay by your side, until death drove us apart.

love u my golden retriever baby Candy. always.